2019, worse or better year ?

I had been thinking for some time about doing this article/testimony of my year 2019 but I always told myself that I should write it on the new year’s eve of 2020 and only God knew why. 

If I had written this article a few weeks ago, I would surely have concluded that 2019 was rather worse than better. And to find out, the only clue that those who follow me on my networks could have been my multiple absences especially during the first 6 months (by the way: as much as I love social networks, I will never force myself to post if my mood doesn’t follow) and that was it, for the half of my year. 

In 2019, of my 24 years of existence, I have never been this emotionally and psychologically tested. Between the diverse life circumstances and the crucial choices I had to make, I can tell you that I literally hit rock bottom, and until this month of December, it has been an emotional roller coaster. 

But you know, the funny thing is that it is by reaching the ground that I have completed a year of accomplishments.That was the title I gave to the year 2019, at its beginning, and I can tell you that I lived it to the fullest: as much through visible achievements (like this blog) as through personal achievements.  And when I analyze all these accomplishments, I don’t even know how I could have achieved them in the overall state I was in all this year. 

But you see, until a few days ago, I had decided to consider this year worse than better, simply because I was thinking “Ok Lord, I realized this and that, there is this and there is that that happened this year BUT I was too depressed, I was too sad so no it hasn’t been a good year” and it was in this state of mind that I was going to write this article. 

That was the title I gave to the 2019 year, at its beginning, and I can tell you that I lived it to the fullest: as much through visible achievements (like this blog) as through personal achievements.  And when I analyze all these accomplishments, I don’t even know how I could have achieved them in the overall state I was in all this year. 

But you see, until a few days ago, I had decided to consider this year worse than better, simply because I was thinking “Ok Lord, I realized this and that, there is this and that that happened this year BUT I was too depressed, I was too sad so no it hasn’t been a good year” and that was the state of mind I was going to write this article in. 

But that was until yesterday, the last Sunday of the year. And as I was in church at that moment, I read my Pastor’s message: “THANK YOU SO MUCH”. And if there’s one thing that hit me is the importance of developing a spirit of gratitude no matter what the circumstances of life and instead of focusing on what’s wrong or what God hasn’t done, focus on what He has done, because there is always a reason to be grateful.

And while he was preaching my heart was bubbling inside me and I realized that I had been a little ungrateful because I have not one but many things to be thankful for in 2019, and so I changed my way of looking at this year, and instead of saying, “Okay Lord, I have realized this and that,” I have realized this, there is this and that that went well this year BUT I was too depressed, I was too sad so no it wasn’t a good year” I said to myself “Ok Lord, I was too depressed and too sad this year BUT in spite of that, you allowed me to realize and live this and that, you offered me so many things so thank you it was still a good year. » 

“There is always something to be grateful for.”

And I would like to encourage you to do the same, especially those of you who feel like you’ve had a bad year, take the time to think about all the great things this year has given you, and be focused and grateful for it. 

In fact, let’s even be thankful for what didn’t go well. God only knows why He allows us to go through certain situations. And if for some of them we can already understand the why, let us choose to trust God all along the way, even for the situations we have gone through that we do not yet understand, and let us choose to believe that great testimonies will come out of them.

On that note, I wish you all an excellent year 2020, and no matter how you have lived the past year, may 2020 be better!

Lots of love, 

The Christianista 

 

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